Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Time flies! It has been exactly a month since I came to UKM . A vivid picture of entering UKM on the first day still fresh in mind. Anyhow, I just don't get used to the mundane routine of university life until today. So, whenever there is a friend asking me, 'hey, how's life in UKM?!' to which I'll reply, 'I'm living good in hell!' Yes, I describe this place as hell, but i guess it would be somehow ironic if I fell for this place someday later. So back on track, the life here is a real mental torture, and oh, not forgot to mention that it is a physical torture too! I has suffered from asthma since the first day of MMP, followed by coughing, flu, and then fell sick for exactly a week. Frankly speaking, I felt like dying at that moment as we still have to do a lot of walking and climbing from time to time. Pathetic, enough said. Of course, I'm feeling much better now. I always tell myself that I should have no complains since I get to go home every weekends - the only way to make myself feel better.
Speaking about lectures and classes, we, the year one law students have to take up to 8 subjects for this semester. First of all, English for law is the only subject that doesn't really bring much pressure compared to the other subjects. A language class that conducts in a small class is fun! We're required to write reflective e-journal, so yeah, this is why I'm here to update my long neglected blog. Anyhow, I wish I will be able to master my English skill in this class. When it comes to Arabic language class, however, is totally an alienate language, a stranger for me. Seriously, why do we have to learn arabic?! WHY?? I always think that people get to learn korean, japanese and so on, but why the language for me to learn has to be arabic?! oh well, I believe that I will be able to master it too, one day later. Besides that, Malaysian Legal System, Constitutional Law, Contract Law and ICT & law are the four main law subjects that we have to read. The lectures for these subjects are said to be okay so far, though sometimes I couldn't really catch up with what the lecturers taught in lecture hall. Nevermind, I still have tutorial classes to help me, I suppose.Another nightmare of mine: the tutorial class. Tutorial classes for these law subjects have started on the fourth week of lecture which was today. Before the tutorial started, seniors have briefed us about how useful the tutorial is, and at the same time, how scary it is. As a former STPM student, I have no idea about what it would be like. It's like we have to prepare answers for every tutorial questions and there is a specific way to conduct a tutorial. Everyone of us are required to voice out our own opinions and thoughts for all the tutorial questions. According to seniors, you're encouraged to have more interaction with lecturers if can, so that the lecturers would remember you and try to impress them with your words. I was like 'oh my god' when I first heard about it. It sound scary actually. Again, I panicked.
Today was my very first ever tutorial for constitutional law. How ridiculous that I was up all night before tutorial, cramming for the tutorial questions. I was worried because I couldn't find out answers for few questions. I felt so unprepared when I stepped into the tutorial class. I've not did enough, my mind was totally blank. But it ended up that lecturer just discussed only one question for the 1 hour tutorial, asking about the definition of constitution. Luckily, I've prepared that question. Thank god my first tutorial just over like that even though I've been questioned by the lecturer. And it was not as scary as I thought. Am I just being paranoid? I breathed a sigh of relief, finally. There will be another tutorial (which will be conducted in mini moot) waiting for me on this coming thursday.... Mini moot sounds cool huh? Well, not at all but I have to get ready for it.
In fact I think tutorial classes help a lot, at least for me, to read up everything in details for the sake of 'tutorial preparation'. Words to myself: DO NOT DO LAST MINUTE READING ANYMORE! But still, I realise that understanding every single context during lectures is very important either. Without the understanding before preparation, I have to read everything all over and over again just to understand a very simple context and that's why I used up to 7 hours to prepare the answers for tutorial. It's such a waste of time actually. Thus, it also means that I've to do revision, read cases everyday and no more last minute works. We should always expect the unexpected. Be prepared for all the time is the most important thing. I tell myself that I have to do alot of reading from now onwards and I can make it!
Anyway, It is an undeniable fact that I've learnt a lot of new things and new experiences, everything is indeed a new try for me, despite the facts that I couldn't adapt to the life here, couldn't really get a clearer picture about the course that I'm going to read for 4 years. Even though I think I've chosen the wrong course but there is no point for me to regret now, what is done is done. The only thing I can do now is to put hundred times of effort to make dreams happen. Be optimistic and everything will be alright.
p/s: this is supposed to be a reflective journal for the purpose of English for Law, but it becomes a not-so-reflective journal because I have so much to grumble it all eventually summed up in one post. lol.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
i think my paranoia/depression or whatever you call that is getting worse from days to days.
the i won't make the first move if you don't talk to me first sydrome is back again. i miss the BFFs but i have no mood to talk to anyone of them. i'm not a good friend all these while, i'm a total loser in handling and mantaining a relationship. i hate it but i can do nothing. sigh.
this is life. another fucked up life.