★ remains ordinary ★

2011-03-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

you got ditched, thus you have to stay stronger than anyone else.

2011-03-11T13:29:00.004+08:00

到底什么时候才能学会放手

我真的撑到很累了

='(

2010-10-26T21:03:00.012+08:00

i have this omen that i'll screw up the finals in this sem.

today is not a good start for finals.

anyhoo, thanks to the homo sapiens who have tried so hard to comfort me and to make me feel better, especially sean.

i know i'm the lousiest person on earth that very hard to please.

xoxo.

hello finals, goodbye PBL! - 4th entry

2010-10-14T18:10:00.010+08:00

I CAN BREATHE A SIGH OF RELIEF NOW! *Phew*

And not to forget to say, 'GOODBYE PBL!'

I'm done with my PBL client counselling for contract law and consti law, like finally, I'M DONE! To those whoever had told that me client counselling is fun: hey you, client counselling ain't fun at all okay! oh well, perhaps different people have different perspective of view. I shouldn't blame anyone who had told me it's fun.

I guess I'm the lousiest actor on earth, literally, you can see that client counselling is so not my game. What I could say that is, it is a whole new experience but not a good one. The worst thing ever that happened in my life is I have to use Malay as our language for both of the PBL but in fact I couldn't even speak a fluent Malay. Gosh, it was so embarrassing! I was a client for Contract PBL, therefore I had this idea to act as a client who just back from USA and thus I could just speak a broken Malay. Anyhow, anxiety is a pain in the ass. I was totally black out once the lawyer invited us to enter the room. How could I forget every single points that I was supposed to say?! Urghhh I hate myself. I had no choice but to being spontaneous and crapped whatever I could. Thank god, it turned out to be okay after all, though it was not a good one. On the other hand, I think did badly in Consti PBL. It was totally a disappointment. Lecture commented a lot about my voice is too soft and I have to show my confidence by speaking out loud. I think I have to improve my voice projection. le sigh.

Frankly speaking, I'm not satisfied with my performance during both of the PBL especially Consti PBL. I didn't prepare much for Consti PBL and worse, it's all last minute work due to certain reasons. Yet, I have to say that I did put a lot of efforts on Contract Law PBL at first, by thinking and vomiting the storyline out since months ago before PBL started. I did all the researches online to prepare all the documents that are needed for my story and etc. I'm not going to complain anything but I think that I'm still not ready to work together with everyone as a team when it comes to studies. I think I could use the excuse that it's all because we did not have assignments or projects that require teamwork during STPM, all we had to do is just study and study to obtain good results, thus I have my own way of doing things. But I know I have to learn it from now, as I have four years to go, to work as a team.

Here comes the 'HELLO FINALS!'

Oh gosh, since that PBL is over, means final exam is really around the corner this time! I'm worried about the finals now. All the subjects left untouched. I'm still not mentally prepared to go for exam yet. I met my mentor last week and she told me that I seriously have to change my way of study when I told her I used to do LAST MINUTE STUDY last time! I think now I have to study all day and night to cover everything as possible since I have only ONE WEEK left. stressed.

*BREATHE DEEPLY* :'(

Injustice - 3rd entry

2010-09-25T01:07:00.008+08:00

I watched the movie The Other Boleyn Girl during our english for law class on Tuesday. The Other Boleyn Girl is a historical fiction movie about British history, introducing a woman of extraordinary determination and desire who lived at the heart of the most exciting and glamorous court in Europe. I don't know how much of factual telling of the British history consists in this movie, yet, I found that it reflects a lot of injustice in the life of King Henry VII's court.

Firstly, the Boleyn family itself reflects injustice. In order to furthering their own political ambitions, Thomas Boleyn and his brother in law plan to install Thomas' elder daughter Anne Boleyn in the court of Henry VII of the England. Even though William Carey has asked for Anne's hand to marry her, but Thomas Boleyn rejects and offers Mary to William because he thought that Anne could do better. Well, I personally think that it is not really fair for a father to decide who his daughters should marry to like how Thomas Boleyn does to decide the Boleyn daughters' future just merely for his own sake. Besides that, when he get to know the secret marriage between Anne and the nobleman Henry Percy, he exiles Anne to France in disgrace. As he thinks that their secret marriage will ruin Mary's reputation. This is another injustice happen. The father should have know that exile Anne to France is not a best solution in order to secure Mary's reputation.

And also, the rebellious Anne Boleyn makes her own way to get what she wants. She even betrays her sister, Mary Boleyn. She feels that she has been betrayed by Mary when Mary alert her father and uncle about Anne's secret marriage with Henry Percy and that, she is exiled to France. Thus, she tries to steal the king away from Mary whom Mary loves. She embarks on a successful campaign to win Henry VII of the England over, showing she has grown more mature since prior to her exile. She uses all her ways to seduce the king and even taunts Mary. She drives King Henry to vow to never speak to Mary again. But in return, Mary returns to court and lies on behalf of Anne, to save Anne when the scandal of Anne and Henry Percy becomes a threaten to Anne's coming marriage to King Henry VII. Henry succumbs to Anne's demands and annuls his marriage to the Queen of Catherine for the reason that Catherine failed to give England an heir also shows injustice. Besides that, Anne's selfish attitude has caused his elder brother, George was found unanimously guilty and sentenced to death. I think that it shows injustice too when someone has betrayed you but you forgive that person and even lend a hand to them in return. Though there is this saying that forgiveness is the sweetest revenge, but I feel that it is mere unfair to the person who has sacrificed a lot for the other person who just betrayed him or her.

It is an inevitable fact that injustice happens on us everyday and everywhere. However, I believe that injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere. A wrongdoer will get their punishment one day no matter how. Thats what we call it karma, I believe.

stressed is desserts spelled backward - 2nd entry

2010-09-05T11:11:00.037+08:00

Hello people! I'm back to the blogosphere, again, for my English for Law journal entry.

How's holiday so far?

It's already been a week since I was back to Klang. Yes, I'm having 2 weeks break for the sake of Hari Raya. Oh not forget to wish all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya! Like finally, I could stay at home and the very familiar bedroom for more than a week. The feeling is great! In the meanwhile of enjoying, hard feeling is pondering because it's time to say goodbye to two of my best friends, shayrol and yongwee who had left to Japan and China for their studies.

That's Shayrol, a girl that i knew her since we were in primary school. All thank to the assignment we had, I was trapped in UKM during weekends and didn't get to meet her in the first place. Luckily I managed to meet the best friend two days before she left! We did not go for any trip this time but only a simple catch up session at home. Yet, it was an amazing time we spent together and three of us enjoyed it very much. After 15 days of holiday in Malaysia, she had returned to Japan for her studies.

We did all the cooking and baking that day. It somehow reminded me of the old time, that 'masak-masak' used to be our favourite game when we were still a kid. After 20 years of living, I would never say that cooking or baking is an easy job. COOKING AND BAKING ARE NOT AS EASY AS THEY SEEMS! Apparently I can't cook, not even the simplest dish. Thus, I had no choice but to sit aside and watched them preparing the dishes..... embarrassed, enough said.

Carbonara, roasted chicken, bacon, pumpkin soup were the main dishes of the day, we had doughnuts and brownies as desserts too. While Shayrol and Lillian were busy preparing the dishes, suddenly I had this idea to contribute myself by my first attempt at baking brownies! When I offered myself to bake, Yong Wee gave me a doubtful expression and said, 'what?! are you sure you're going to bake?!' as if I would burn the kitchen down. Lol. Without hesitation, I took out the baking equipments and prepared the ingredients. I had never tried my hands in baking before, thank god Shayrol was there to guide me.

Looking at the instruction, the procedure is not very complicated and the recipe is simple too. But at the moment I was about to start baking, I was totally clueless what I should do at first. I should have melt the dark chocolate and butter first but I didn't. Instead of melting the chocolate first, I straight away poured the instant baking powder and stirred in an egg and cooking oil. Halfway of stirring the mixture only realized that we had not melt the chocolate bar yet. Lillian quickly took out the chocolate bar and butter from the refrigerator and the maid melt it for us. After that we added in the tempered chocolate and stirred again. According to the instruction, we're supposed to stir only 50 times but I think I was too keen on stirring until I forgot to count. Gosh, it was totally a mess! Immediately after I spread the tempered butter in a baking pan and poured the mixture in, we baked it in the warm oven for 30 minutes. Guess what! We used the wrong baking pan as we're supposed to use a 8 x 8 baking pan which could bake thick fudgy brownies.

So yeah, this is our flat crispy brownies which is not supposed to look like this. The outcome was simply horrible. And it tasted like a cookie more than a brownie. Hence, we tried to stack up the brownies so that it looked thicker.

this is how the brownies looked in the end.

I felt a little guilty for the failure outcome. Although my first baking attempt was not really a successful one, somehow baking is fun, but only if you know how to bake. Baking is definitely one of my weaknesses. Nevermind then, practice makes perfect. I should learn how to bake and cook next time so that mom wouldn't nag at me again for not knowing how to cook at the age of 20.

Anyhow, I love spending time with the best friends but now they are no longer in town. Wish them all the best in their future undertaking and I shall go back to study now, for my future's sake! :) Back to studies, final exam is not far from now. I have actually planned to cover up all my subjects during this raya holiday but it seems like the plan is down the drain. I need to brush up now and no more slacking off, I have tons of assignments and PBL work left undone. I have to accomplish them as soon as possible before I start my revision for exam. Sigh. After two months of studying in university, I still couldn't seek for a better way to study.

life. sucks

2010-08-06T19:46:00.002+08:00

everything is so wrong right now.

i hate being a law student, i can't be myself at all...

a whole new life - 1st entry

2010-08-03T23:50:00.012+08:00

A thought crept up to me: Have I chosen the wrong course or worse, enter the wrong university? Still, I can't find any reason to convince myself that I'm now reading law in UKM. I'm all stressed and overwhelmed....

Time flies! It has been exactly a month since I came to UKM . A vivid picture of entering UKM on the first day still fresh in mind. Anyhow, I just don't get used to the mundane routine of university life until today. So, whenever there is a friend asking me, 'hey, how's life in UKM?!' to which I'll reply, 'I'm living good in hell!' Yes, I describe this place as hell, but i guess it would be somehow ironic if I fell for this place someday later. So back on track, the life here is a real mental torture, and oh, not forgot to mention that it is a physical torture too! I has suffered from asthma since the first day of MMP, followed by coughing, flu, and then fell sick for exactly a week. Frankly speaking, I felt like dying at that moment as we still have to do a lot of walking and climbing from time to time. Pathetic, enough said. Of course, I'm feeling much better now. I always tell myself that I should have no complains since I get to go home every weekends - the only way to make myself feel better.

Speaking about lectures and classes, we, the year one law students have to take up to 8 subjects for this semester. First of all, English for law is the only subject that doesn't really bring much pressure compared to the other subjects. A language class that conducts in a small class is fun! We're required to write reflective e-journal, so yeah, this is why I'm here to update my long neglected blog. Anyhow, I wish I will be able to master my English skill in this class. When it comes to Arabic language class, however, is totally an alienate language, a stranger for me. Seriously, why do we have to learn arabic?! WHY?? I always think that people get to learn korean, japanese and so on, but why the language for me to learn has to be arabic?! oh well, I believe that I will be able to master it too, one day later. Besides that, Malaysian Legal System, Constitutional Law, Contract Law and ICT & law are the four main law subjects that we have to read. The lectures for these subjects are said to be okay so far, though sometimes I couldn't really catch up with what the lecturers taught in lecture hall. Nevermind, I still have tutorial classes to help me, I suppose.

Another nightmare of mine: the tutorial class. Tutorial classes for these law subjects have started on the fourth week of lecture which was today. Before the tutorial started, seniors have briefed us about how useful the tutorial is, and at the same time, how scary it is. As a former STPM student, I have no idea about what it would be like. It's like we have to prepare answers for every tutorial questions and there is a specific way to conduct a tutorial. Everyone of us are required to voice out our own opinions and thoughts for all the tutorial questions. According to seniors, you're encouraged to have more interaction with lecturers if can, so that the lecturers would remember you and try to impress them with your words. I was like 'oh my god' when I first heard about it. It sound scary actually. Again, I panicked.

Today was my very first ever tutorial for constitutional law. How ridiculous that I was up all night before tutorial, cramming for the tutorial questions. I was worried because I couldn't find out answers for few questions. I felt so unprepared when I stepped into the tutorial class. I've not did enough, my mind was totally blank. But it ended up that lecturer just discussed only one question for the 1 hour tutorial, asking about the definition of constitution. Luckily, I've prepared that question. Thank god my first tutorial just over like that even though I've been questioned by the lecturer. And it was not as scary as I thought. Am I just being paranoid? I breathed a sigh of relief, finally. There will be another tutorial (which will be conducted in mini moot) waiting for me on this coming thursday.... Mini moot sounds cool huh? Well, not at all but I have to get ready for it.

In fact I think tutorial classes help a lot, at least for me, to read up everything in details for the sake of 'tutorial preparation'. Words to myself: DO NOT DO LAST MINUTE READING ANYMORE! But still, I realise that understanding every single context during lectures is very important either. Without the understanding before preparation, I have to read everything all over and over again just to understand a very simple context and that's why I used up to 7 hours to prepare the answers for tutorial. It's such a waste of time actually. Thus, it also means that I've to do revision, read cases everyday and no more last minute works. We should always expect the unexpected. Be prepared for all the time is the most important thing. I tell myself that I have to do alot of reading from now onwards and I can make it!

Anyway, It is an undeniable fact that I've learnt a lot of new things and new experiences, everything is indeed a new try for me, despite the facts that I couldn't adapt to the life here, couldn't really get a clearer picture about the course that I'm going to read for 4 years. Even though I think I've chosen the wrong course but there is no point for me to regret now, what is done is done. The only thing I can do now is to put hundred times of effort to make dreams happen. Be optimistic and everything will be alright.

p/s: this is supposed to be a reflective journal for the purpose of English for Law, but it becomes a not-so-reflective journal because I have so much to grumble it all eventually summed up in one post. lol.

what is yours?!

2010-05-07T18:14:00.004+08:00

saw this on facebook and i think its freaking funny.

I DECLARE MY SOCIAL LIFE LEGALLY DEAD!

lmao.

i'll be died of depression if this shit goes on.

2010-05-03T17:14:00.006+08:00

i think my paranoia/depression or whatever you call that is getting worse from days to days.

i.have.gone.insane.

the i won't make the first move if you don't talk to me first sydrome is back again. i miss the BFFs but i have no mood to talk to anyone of them. i'm not a good friend all these while, i'm a total loser in handling and mantaining a relationship. i hate it but i can do nothing. sigh.

this is life. another fucked up life.

-

2010-05-01T10:37:00.015+08:00

please don't doubt me when i say i might going to college.
yes, its a college, not a uni!

i don't understand why people always give me such respones like 'what?! are you sure you going to college?!' and 'why college?' and this ~~fellow~~ fella even laughed at me and said, 'finished stpm but go college pulak. waste time' i know that you always ~~underestimate people~~ don't encourage people to go form 6. since you're elder, maybe you're right for what you have told me before, somehow, i think i have proven you wrong and you dare not mention about it. you're my senior, i have to respect you. but please, i have had enough from you too at the same time! i don't like talking about my studies to you, seriously.

i'm lazy to explain. i don't see any diff between college and uni for private institution. oh, maybe uni sounds more high class? i don't know.

O_____o

i don't have to think anymore

2010-04-21T09:14:00.000+08:00

....

人活着是为了走更长远的路

2010-03-31T23:54:00.004+08:00

但是。。。

我累了，
想放弃，
什么都不想管了,
离开这里到一个很远的地方，

可是。。。

可以吗？

=(

this is what i got today

2010-03-26T19:36:00.003+08:00

so yeah, went to JM with ywee today, like finally. but I didn't get to enter university of auckland for their LLB anymore, as they have no admission for sem 2. I applied the uni that i don't really wish to go for i-don't-know-what-is-my-purpose of applying that. should be just for fun. how good. FML.

anyhow, i feel so good to have a best friend that willing to be your driver and drive you to everywhere! thanks ywee! HAHAHAHAH...

2010-03-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

too many things going on at the same time, i don't know how to make decision now.

=(

i wish i could have more time

2010-03-07T10:33:00.006+08:00

i think nowadays i have totally lost the ability to express my feeling in words. i don't know where should i start my rant now.

all i need is time at this moment.
i wish i could have more time to really think about what i want. ( i regret that i applied usm O__o )
i wish i could have more time to discuss about the freaking uni things with friends and seniors. ( i'm in delimma and so far seems like no one encourage me to go college =S )
i wish i could have more time to follow up the application thing by my own. ( thank god i have a nice friend :) )
i wish i could have more time to find myself more entertainment. ( i just realised that how lifeless i am, i've no life, thank you )
i wish i could have more time to settle my things.

i spend most of my time doing thing that i don't really enjoy it, which is the job that i'm having now. even teacher thinks my job is boring, tell me how could i enjoy it though everyone used to tell me that try to love the job, consequently i'll enjoy it after sometime. but heck, i find it so hard. mom and teacher suggest me to get a job in law firm, but i'm struggling and seriously i don't know how to look for a job! FML. (i know i should appreciate that i'm not jobless now.)

i want to go travel before i back to studies! i wish i could work my ass off to backpack or visit shayrol in japan instead of sitting there waiting for no one's answer until today. but... *sighs*

lifeless.

i can't breathe

2010-02-25T00:30:00.012+08:00

results is coming out not more than 24 hours! i'm very VERY NERVOUS! all thanks to the dearest mr. lee heng chuan.

i thought after having a good laugh in cinema would make me feel better but it didn't. =( somehow, 72 tenants is much more nicer than all's well ends well! and one thing, i'm here to declare that I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LOOK KIDDY! you know what. when we were at the escalator coming down from cinema just now, there is this auntiestanding behind us, asking her husband something like why still have kids watching late night show, is it that they don't have school tomorrow?! guess what, the kid she meant was heng chuan ( better not including chi kuan and me ) HAHAHAHHAHAH.... see, i have found my partner in crime. XD pig you better stop laughing at me from now on, YOU ALSO THE ONE WHO LOOK KIDDY OK! LOL!

alright, enough of crap. i still don't feel better. wish me luck people and good luck everyone.

*prays so hard*

i'm gonna hide myself once i gt the results. please don't ask me how's my results if i dont ask you.

2010-02-06T14:50:00.002+08:00

i'm so fucked up!

stop saying that i look kiddy =D

2010-01-31T22:44:00.011+08:00

wanted to buy clothes that look more mature but ended up buying kiddy clothes again! O__o
mom is asking me when i'll be going to curl my hair but i'm struggling again, i scare i'll look like an auntie. =___=
colleagues thought i'm a spm leaver. @___@
even dad's laughing at me that i don't look like a 20 year old lady.
need not to say that mom has been nagging about it all the time as she desperately wants me to become a lady. O.o

see, i told you i'm forever 17. stop reminding me that i'm going to be 20 soon. thank you. =)

perhaps perming my hair is the first step to be lady-like. lol. but I'M STILL STRUGGLING, i love straight,long hair with fringe. =(

=(

2010-01-30T13:52:00.006+08:00

i'm not excited about cny.
i have only 4 days of holidays.
no plans during cny.
shayrol isn't coming back for cny.
bro going for his school lion dance throughout the whole cny.
parents don't get to book any hotel at anywhere.
most of the relatives aren't in m'sia.
means angpaus will be getting lesser and lesser.

more rants to go but i've no mood to blog already. fml.

B.A.D

2010-01-14T21:57:00.001+08:00

bad hair, bad skin, everything is so bad right now and everyone says i look kiddy. =(

2010-01-08T09:21:00.016+08:00

Friday January 8, 2010 - from thestar online

Fuel price by car size

The bigger your car, the more you will have to pay for petrol from May 1. This is because the Government is going to change the way fuel is subsidised. It is planning for a fuel pricing mechanism that will ensure only targeted groups, particularly those from the lower-income, will receive fuel subsidy.

wtf.

~~i guess parents might sell the cars again. because we're not rich and we can't afford the freaking expensive petrol.~~ lol. was hearing from 98.80 fm this morning, that the petrol gonna rise up to 2.10 per litre if you're driving an imported big car. and you might even have to show your IC everytime when you pump petrol at the petrol station. =.=''' I WONDER IF THE PRICE WILL BE CHEAPER IF YOU'RE DRIVING A NATIONAL CAR?!

wtf is this again?!

thank god i don't have to pump petrol by my own. i can foresee that mum will be grumbling all the time once she goes to the petrol station.

to be frank, policticking in the country these days ..... i'm speechless.

O__o

damn, i missed out so many episodes of gossip girls season 3 because of this freaking laptop. =(

my dear siao po sudah balik ke japan and now my days are going back to normal; continue rotting, no more outings but working, pathetic life i'm having. =(

chua shayrol, you better come back during cny i tell you!

i'm fat and my face is getting rounder from day to day,
this is what mom complaining everyday,
but i have no any way to lose my weight,
cny is getting near,
later i don't get to buy nice clothes to wear.

=(

happy new year!

2010-01-01T23:56:00.009+08:00

few more minutes to go before the first day of new year is over. nothing much to blog at first but i've nothing better to do other than sleep.

as usual, the same people celebrating new year together. shay, lil, tommy, vijin, samantha, shino plus his gf and jayson together with his gf too.

the new year countdown was okay, as we still preferred 2009's countdown at Genting. at least the firework show at Genting would be much better than this and of course the weather wouldn't be that HOT! OH, and those people who celebrate new year eve at genting wouldn't be that wild and crazy that they could SIMPLY SPRAY THE FREAKING FOAM ON PEOPLE FACE AND EYES! O___O so instead of heading to The Curve and intended to go Library, shay, lillian and i had our dinner at Full House, Pyramid. the food was not bad, but the decoration and stuffs in Full House, Pyramid was just so so. 10 of us walked around outside pyramid, as usual talked and laughed. the memorable new year's all about stucking in car park for 2 hours or more. jayson said FML. lol. pity the mighty tommy who had made a wrong decision to follow 3 of us or else he could reach home much more earlier together with vijin them XD but still we had funny gossip crap session in car. seriously the countdown destination suck big time. the people there were mostly for clubbing purpose i think.

ZzzzZz...

i won't mention about my new year resolutions list like everyone has done. i find it quite useless as my 09's resolutions were totally dashed.

loves.

of movie of laughters

2009-12-24T13:06:00.002+08:00

zombieland is disgustingly hilarious.
i wanna watch avatar and alvin and the chipmunks 2 =(
my tummy is so pain now bye.

books for sale!

2009-12-21T16:52:00.008+08:00

i don't know who is going to read this shit, but still i want to say,

ALL THESE BOOKS ARE FOR SALE!
@ half price/lower

click to enlarge it and see the books' condition!

ok lah, i know some of the books might not be in perfect condition, but they will help you to save a lot! no, is damn a lot!

boys and girls, leave me a msg if you're interested to buy.

thank you.

$__________$

everything is still uncertainty

2009-12-14T15:12:00.005+08:00

mum will never stop nagging me about the application thingy if i still haven't do a thing. i feel relief since there is still a chance to enter sem two. i've mailed to the international office of the uni about the application due date to study in sem two. hopefully place is still available when the results out next year. *prays sooo hard*

seriously i need good results. i'm afraid now because i could no longer get straight As after the freaking spm results. so what more about stpm, I'M MORE AFRAID OF THAT!

i don't know why i'm causing myself more stress after exam just thinking about this.

O___o

money rant

2009-12-04T19:51:00.003+08:00

how i wish there is a bundle of cash right in front of me now. phone spoilt, camera spoilt, so many gadgets to get for this freaking laptop. ALL THESE STUFFS NEED FREAKING LOTS OF MONEY MANNNNN le sigh.

gee up!

2009-11-06T17:32:00.013+08:00

cute graphic is the arousal of motives

=D

lardee and ickle lost their way. yet they never gave up and finally they met someone (a snail) to bring them home.

=)

same goes to me. i have no turning point out there. i should make good use of every minutes of mine and stop grumbling about shits. not much time left. what i have to do now is STUDY and STUDY! though i'm damn stressed.

go, huishien go!

one more month to go!

out of a sudden, i have this thought:
will i miss the friends after december? i think i will lor.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.... *i know some of you must be doing this right now*

Don't laugh. i know it sounds funny and unbelievable that huishien has this kinda thought because this is so not me! again, yongv's jaw is going to drop if he see this because he used to say that i'm the most heartless person on earth throughout my years back in kwang hua for certain reasons.

i know i have been hating high school so much since the first day i entered the school, but couldn't deny that i have better memories with friends and teachers in high school. because like seriously, i think i meet better people in form 6 and sorry to say that the only memories i have for the previous 5 years is just about band (because i spent most of my time in band). no offense okayy.

btw, i can't wait for the day when shay is back after our stpm! we have so many things wanna do by then.

me likey!

2009-11-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

No matter how crazy and funny the scenes around you are, they are useless without the person you want to laugh with...

=D

get a life

2009-10-25T21:22:00.010+08:00

was reading through jeannie's blog moment ago. and her latest post got exactly the thoughts that running on my mind all these while. jeannie, see i told u that you know me so well that we even sharing the same thoughts!

Sometimes i think, i shouldn't believe in LOVE (family,friends,love)...

Sometimes i think, i shouldn't bother anyone else except me & myself...

Sometimes i think, any effort i put in to maintain everything would just gone...

Sometimes i think, i should be more selfish to make myself get what i want...

Sometimes i think, sacrificing is very hard & suffering...

Sometimes i think, everyone in this world just don't understand me...

Sometimes i think, it's too cruel when hope just vanished...

Sometimes i think, spending time alone isn't bad or boring...

Sometimes, maybe sometimes or all the times,

I just wanna go away from here and heading to the place i wanna go...

Leave everything,

Change myself to be better,

Look around the world,

Maybe... just maybe...

words from jeannie.

and i've got a thousand thoughts swirling around my head actually, more than these for sure. but sometimes i struggle; if i should think in this way..

anyway, though i have never believed that true friends exist, somehow i appreciate that i have the sweetest and nicest bff and friends that i used to share problems with like shay, jeannie, khershing, yingsing, jo, shiyong and more. despite the fact that we do not really keep in touch like 24/7 but i'm glad to have you guys with me! =D *oh wait, and also eva tho' we don't really talk that often but she's still the one of them who motivated me recently.

'SHE HAS A PATHETIC LIFE', this is the thing that comes to your mind, so do i. yes, my life is pathetic enough but who cares.

=)

OMFG

2009-10-23T23:35:00.003+08:00

i just realised that exam is really around the corner this time. no more 88 days, or 50 days but only 24 DAYS LEFT! yet, i'm still slacking around like nobody's business. i have subjects left untouched, like TOTALLY UNTOUCHED! how am i going to cover all these in 24 more days? sigh.

OMMMGEEEE!!!

how How HOW????

O.o

only if im rich

2009-10-17T00:16:00.008+08:00

i received the bank slip today yet im not excited at all.

because i'm gonna burn a big hole in my parent's pocket which gonna cost more than the amount stated in the bank slip.

i feel guilty for spending money now. chrometophobia eh? sounds ridiculous i know.

$.$

time flies

2009-10-09T00:42:00.002+08:00

don't cry when you've lost something/someone
because you'll definitely gain something/someone better.

so do i.

thank you.

=)

someone's PIG day

2009-10-06T10:09:00.011+08:00

yes, it was her, JEANNIE's pig day yesterday! at first i wanted to get a bunch of friends to celebrate together yet the plan failed big time. i have never been a good planner let it be just an outing or birthday surprise. i suck at planning events, i always know that. for now, i love my friends who plan everything for me! well, though not planing for my future and who is gonna be my future husband but at least for every outings they make. thank you, my dearssss!!

so yesterday, it turned out to be leong chin, sui leng and me the awesome lady to celebrate the siao po's birthday. it wasn't a fancy birthday celebration but we had a great time indeed.

we had BBQ plaza for lunch and sing k session after that. we bought her big apple donuts as birthday cake before we left AEON. as sui leng was rushing to go back, hence we sang the birthday song with the donuts in car while she's driving! muahahahaha..

she's always with food one i tell you.
kononnya di mana ada jeannie, di situ ada makanan!
even driving also want to pose with doughnut.
LOL.

(i know i'm always with food too that's why mom says i'm getting fatter but i don't pose with food like this lor! haha..)

camwhore :D

2009-09-28T22:19:00.009+08:00

a new trend!

we have got the so-called fang da tong's spec!

;)

hello people, this is still an update right? lol.

=D

2009-09-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

you know you love me.

xoxo.

i'm so excited.

HAHAHAHA!

maths is another gone case

2009-09-11T20:14:00.008+08:00

woohooo.. couldn't believe that i didn't online yesterday. did not even turn on the computer! i told wee i wouldn't online and i did it! muahahaha.. was suffered from insomnia and wide awake for the whole night until today morning. I DIDN'T SLEEP, for the sake of 'preparing maths' in my dream. oh wait, i shouldn't say dream but thoughts since i didn't sleep. that was a real mental torture i tell you. its rather make you more depressed than you break up with you boyfriend or girlfriend. digits, formulae and symbols flying everywhere in mind like nobody's business. but the so-called hardwork and efforts to refrain myself from agonies didn't pay off i guess. LOL. i think i'm having PESE (pre exam shit explosion!) how awesome.

i don't know whether i should cry or laugh now. tell me. and my dark circles are even darker than panda's eyes =/

let it be

2009-09-06T01:17:00.009+08:00

i've learnt a lesson half an hour ago.

there's no point to be frank anymore. never ever be too honest to anyone, let them be your close friend or whosever there. whatever you think is right to tell, it doesn't mean other people can accept it. quay hui shien, next time use your ass to think before you want to tell something. what is done is done. there's no turning point to keep back your words. you know you have lost something afterall.

being straighforward and busybody for what? to offend people, to lose your faith and to make shit happen.

like seriously, i have never had this kinda problem like since after primary school time. somehow, the parties involved are now the close friends after the prob. yet, this time it is gonna be a total different story i suppose. shit happened.

awesome shit

2009-09-05T21:30:00.009+08:00

enough said.

2 chapters down the drain. 6 more to go. sigh.

i think i'm ~~awesome!~~ crazy! and this phrase is so random HAHAHAHAHAHA!

who doesn't love money yet..

2009-08-31T19:04:00.005+08:00

people who are real rich do not even bother to show off how rich they are, to flaunt their assets in public and tell the world how expensive the stuffs are.

i know i'm always the realistic one. but then, i found that this kinda people who often show off everything of hers/his are damn annoying. thank you.

dy/dx = 0

2009-08-29T22:18:00.004+08:00

maths is a real suicidal subject. im so wanted to kill myself already just for the first three chapters. merely 3 chapters are enough to drive me nut. how to continue study like this???

i.feel.like.crying.now.sigh.where.is.my.maths.god.

my new toy

2009-08-24T21:10:00.010+08:00

instead of making up with my books, i'm now playing with this thing. a thing you call it 箫.

all thanks to the brother who keep playing his er hu like 24/7. how annoying. and my attempt to play this thing at first is to disturb him away yet hell, i'm addicted to it now. lol. but the amature me can only play Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti DO

hahahahahahahahahhaha...

i'm still wide awake.

2009-08-21T01:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TOMMY!

its 1.45am now and i just reached home.

because i'm a fat ass

2009-08-18T22:31:00.017+08:00

the dark circles are getting worse, pimples popping out like nobody's business. i look lilke a real ghost.

i've gone insane......

back soon!

weykhay asked if i could go to a primary school in KL to teach the xiao peng you play saxophone during this coming holiday. i'm still struggling whether to go or not as trial is coming in two weeks time. big sigh.

*one step to the hell*

i think i should practise the kiasu habits or else i'll nvr be able to concentrate even though i have intention to study. distraction kills me.

2009-08-16T21:59:00.005+08:00

the numbers, symbols and alphabets are driving me crazy.

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*suicides*

i shall cry myself to sleep again tonight.

good night people!

bursting into tears

2009-08-16T00:11:00.000+08:00

i wish i can blast like how the trumpet blasting.

le sigh.

homo sapiens have a nose for trouble. and i smell the tension in the air.

FML FML FML FML.

who the hell says laughter is the real stress buster. it's all crap!

:'(

i've lost the ability to cheer myself nowadays...how great.

deep down to the drain

2009-08-01T11:04:00.008+08:00

GAL.

i don't know where should i start from. duh, everything is going so wrong right now. thing doesn't turn out as what i have expected. i'm in deep shit.

i don't really take things too serious yet i think i couldn't take it easy this time.

FML.

jo says i'm mature in the sense of thinking, but i'd rather say i'm more open minded than mature. because i don't give a damn about how other people feel about me and gossips! *coughs* XD

good night.

2009-07-18T02:37:00.007+08:00

i love spending time with the besties.

we talked.

we laughed.

we gossiped, to be exact, talked bad about other people LOL.

we fooled around.

there's never enough time when the old friends meet.

we had good time indeed.

imlazytotypealengthypostbye

le sigh.

the computer is being bitchy. i have no idea why my computer sound system isn't functioning. damn. and i feel like crashing the computer now.

jeannie oh jeannie

2009-07-15T00:37:00.004+08:00

i'm bored of emo's title (;

jeannie said i'm so emo lately. *pms-ing*

i'm silent theses days because i'm contemplating.

stressed is desserts spelled backward.

i won't complain about shit.

2009-07-13T20:02:00.002+08:00

life isn't that good afterall.

it is gonna be a tough week.

suicide.

if i could marry to a doctor XD

2009-07-11T16:30:00.008+08:00

how funny and lucky. i fell down again. from the staircases. wth!

everyone suggests me to pay a visit to a doctor. for what?! to marry him... LOL! how good if i could marry to a doctor (free check up yo!) since i, myself would never ever become a doctor. ( i rmb that i used to say my ambition was to become a doctor during my primary school time! ha.ha.ha. not funny. )

my back and butt were hurt. like seriously. hurt. hence they think i should go for a check up. and now, the body aches is getting worse. i ignored them and i didn't tell parents anything about this because i could tell that the thing would go funny if i told them. imagine this.

"miiii, my butt is so pain. and my back. my whole body so pain now. "

"why?''

"because i fall down twice!''

"how come? why so careless and can't walk properly."

(because i'm too fat =____=)

''go and apply something to get rid the bruises.''

and after that, they would probably ignore me but the siblings gonna laugh their asss off. this is what normally happened. not first time already.

=______=

i'm.afraid.to.visit.the.doctor.can.because.i.scared.the.doctor.would.end.up.telling.me. i. actually.have.some.kind.of.serious.illness.

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

ishouldmarryadoctorinthefuturesothaticangetfreecheckupallthetime.

;)

emo kills my pain.... in the ass.

2009-07-08T22:53:00.003+08:00

ks said i'm the happy go lucky one. yet i guess i'm not, for today.

i can feel the stress now.

but maths is killing my inspiration to study.

i miss the best friend.

FML.

ouch!

2009-07-06T20:00:00.015+08:00

first of all, congratulation to those homo sapiens/ghosts who used to curse me and desperately wanted to see me in deep shit. congrats wei! oh wait, i know no one would be cursing me and screaming they joy now. you know i know you love me, right?! HAHAHAHHA. guess what?

T___________T

=____________=

i actually fell down on the freaking slippery floor!!!

my.butt.is.seriously.so.pain.like.hell.that.i.cant.even.sit.properly.and.the.elbow.is.hurt.damn.thank.you.

*ROFLMAO* bbq.

);

sad cases.

2009-07-05T05:37:00.011+08:00

i think i'd have to get myself more formal clothes for god knows why and jeannie knows why.

as a result, i'm rotting at home today.

case 1 ends.

LOL. i just realised this.

Pangky pang says:

wat you doing la

huishien says:

rotting

Pangky pang says:

y oni i keep asking u ques??

u wont ask de ar?

huishien says:

y should i ask?

lol

Pangky pang says:

ok.. fine.. not fren la now..

huishien says:

hohoho

thn go away lor

see, i don't normally ask people questions when talking on msn. so if you find out that i ask you questions, even if only one freaking question, consider yourself as the lucky one. thank you. =)

case 2 ends.

trial is coming in two months time.

*bangs wall and dies*

case 3 ends.

i've decided to be more ladylike.

i'm determined.

yet people around me have failed me.

they are so demotivated.

sigh.

case 4 ends.

oh so true can die. no joke.

双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得，双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

笑
双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

爱
一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

坚强
有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

人际
双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

朋友
当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

执着
说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

自尊
双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

分享
在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

eyy leong chin, this analysis is good enough to answer your question eh?

HA.HA.HA.HA!

case 5 ends.

i should go study or do homework now. bye.

case 6 ends.

-

2009-07-04T15:36:00.003+08:00

坏了的东西留在身边也没有用。

不管在怎样努力改变，事情过去了，变了质，就再也无法回到从前。

可是我可以不管吗？

累了。

deep shit.

2009-06-30T22:18:00.004+08:00

its nothing to do with me, why should i feel upset? but hell, i'm drowning in tears like nobody's bussiness.

have a nice day!

2009-06-28T22:22:00.004+08:00

http://failbands.blogspot.com/

have a look and you'll laugh your ass off.

the creator of this blog has load shit of sense of humor.

thank you for brighten up my day.

i've got so much to rant =(

2009-06-28T18:52:00.008+08:00

but i won't say and i won't tell. i'll keep them to myself.

too many things are going wrong. everything seems to be beyond the limit of ~~human~~ my endurance. ROARRRRRRR.

selangor state level marching band competition 2009

2009-06-24T12:40:00.013+08:00

finally, kwang hua school band, my one and only school band got the champion afterall and the best colour guard. they have made it into national level! bravo, i'm proud of you guys!

*big grins*

the results:

Category A

1st: SMJK Kwang Hua

2nd: SMK Tinggi Klang
3rd: SMK Seri Garing

Category B

1st: SMK (P) Raja Zarina

2nd: SMK SAAS

3rd: SMK Batu 8 Puchong

Best Drum Major: SMK Dato Hamzah

Best Colourguard: SMJK Kwang Hua

overall champion: SMJK Kwang Hua

more details/photos will be updated later. stay turn.

for video, click here:
http://www.youtube.c om/watch?v=U6C-ImWVU7U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCo6Gls2Z1c

*photos update*
(camera and photos credit to muk because she's so kind that she let me to be the camera girl for whole day as i didn't bring mine on purpose. and i'm still waiting for the rest photos, muk! ): )

multi bass drumsssss.
*my lady man spotted!*

quad.
*the serious face of wee chuan LOL*

xylo & bell.

tenor sax.
the loves one.
*hong kuan, are you looking at hot guys?*

horns.
*discussing...*

overall

2009-06-20T16:41:00.031+08:00

finally, everything is over. and yours truly, the smartass me who always have lot shit of excuses to excuse myself from studies have to shift back to study mode, like seriously, after slacking and wandering for a week. i swear. i'm feeling so indolent can.

anyway OW was good compared to last year, i should say. yet sorry to say that, i had not been a good foster i know. it is because i used to associate myself with people who are hyperactive, talkative, acting silly or so. ( i miss band life ahhh ): because there collects all these type of people LOL ) a SAMPAT you called that, though i'm not the one. oh god, i lied. but who cares! AHHHAHAHAHAHAHAH! ok back to the topic. hence, i found it strange to have a junior that is quiet, obedient and adhered to the rules, everything went law by law O.o * i seriously can faint i tell you* wait, its not like i wished to have someone who always disobey me! big NO THANKS! but just that... urgh, forget about it. still, i'm glad. actually i'm fine with it but since kok thai said i treated my junior badly, i think i'd have to say something. i'm sorry for being such a lousy foster. i know i'm bad.

the v.president of MTE aka the woman who loves me the most!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

i have freaking long face.

T_____T

my guiltiness spreads whenever i see this photo.

because its like when the fans requesting to take photos with the superstar, a super duper non of her business ka-le-fe die die want to join them.

*covers face and runs away*

LOL!

i feel so sorry too.

WHY MY FACE SO LONG ONE LAHH????

i told shinlin about the guiltiness and the mean thing i did yesterday and she freaking LAUGHED AT ME and said this is not first time. wth. you know why, because band people do the same thing all the time! XD but ... i did that in front of ~~strangers~~ juniors that i don't really know them. how embarrasing.

plain awesome :D

2009-06-18T22:40:00.010+08:00

butterfly spotted!

...

i'm a girl from hell because i capture everyone's soul into my camera.

the teacher said.

a not so awesome post to a not so awesome friend (:

2009-06-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

LOLOL!

ignore the title as i'm just kidding.

19 candles here to wish you a happy 19th birthday!

oh well, i know the picture looks cacat

and i'm supposed to make a better one

but its time to bed now.

(;

again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TORTOISE!

...

2009-06-14T01:04:00.006+08:00

the holiday so far? holyshit! i did nothing productive, NONE. books and homework left untouched during the two weeks holiday. attempted to study at starbucks in the middle night yet failed big time. caramel macchiato didn't help though. highland's starbucks is so lousy.

coffeee makes no sense.

study my ass la.

can die.

counting down for the bandmen. one more week, here we they go for the band competition. and i cant wait to watch the full show. strive your best and we'll meet on the field of glory. all the best everyone!

i solemnly swear that i'll make myself study after today.

where's all my guiltiness gone? T_____T

2009-06-04T19:37:00.000+08:00

i don't miss band but i miss the ol' days in band. XD

zzz...

2009-06-04T02:16:00.001+08:00

why am i doing all these again?? no point.

teehee.

2009-05-28T16:32:00.016+08:00

i'm happy. because the mid term exam has finally come to an end. oh despite the facts that i look like a real ghost now and so the shitty results that i'm gonna face soon, i'm still happy. woohooooo...

*jumps up and down*

i've never expected to celebrate birthday in school as my birthday never failed to fall on either holiday or exam period. i'm used to it anyway. =___= but i've got another birthday cake today! thanks to the homo sapiens whoseover there like ah gan, pang, sen chen, soek yee, chern hong ( sorry if i've spelt the names wrongly) , wee, wengkit, kaijun, and a VERY BIG THANKS (since that i say i will stop cursing) to you, ben for making my hair so dirty and smelly like nobody's business. and thanks for the present too =) the bra and undie is way too small for me LOL. HAHAHAHAHAHA~ well, i'm just kidding since that i've been told that it's a bra o__O guess what! it's actually a very pink naked bear wearing an undie and something like a bra shaped pillow sticking on the bear's body. wth lah. and it is PINK! my godd.. O.o

anyhoo, thanks again! i appreciate it. =)

:)

2009-05-27T18:36:00.006+08:00

birthday is nothing yet this is the day that my credit went zero in a flash. and i meant it. really. i've run out of credit to reply the rest, sorry lor.

=_____=

no celebration, no party, no outing with friends today as i'm still having exam. yet i'm gonna meet the besties this sunday and you know what, the boss is gonna treat me a dinner! but.. steamboat is always his first choice or his favourite o.O well, i should have no complaint, i know. too bad shay wouldn't be here. shay, you swim back lah. HAHAHAH..

anyway, thanks dad and mum, and the siblings! and also the friends for all the presents, wishes and the one and only call from caibao and birthday song from shay when we skyped just now! ILY and IMY!

it sounds like a pathetic day. but hell, who cares.

still, with lots of love.

words to maths.

2009-05-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

you stink!

2009-05-18T21:44:00.004+08:00

while mum is currently addicted to hatin' on the club, i'm so outdated that i didn't even know it is rihanna's song until mum told me that.

T_________T

see, i've told you that i'm turning into a nerd these day.

HUISHIEN IS DEAD.

2009-05-05T21:13:00.000+08:00

i won't believe in miracle anymore.

reflection.

2009-05-03T18:29:00.001+08:00

if only everything has its reflection.

reflection of street lamp.

reflection of the hosue roof.

would 'no regret' ever happen if one is able to see what he's doing through the reflection of himself. as if people always claim that they don't know what they are doing, and yes, i've never failed to say so. how i wish that there's a reflection of myself (no mirror thanks) so that i'm always sober, knowing what i'm doing and what i've done but not like what i'm doing now... slacking and being unproductive! (except for the photos above lol)

oh wait, do you know how do i know that i'm slacking since there's no reflection and i don't have huge mirror in my room?
cause i've got my computer screen to tell me that!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

=___________=

not funny, i know.

but,

sigh...

a broken heart

2009-05-02T01:34:00.006+08:00

at first sight, i said it's a heart shape.

now, i'd say that it's actually a broken heart.

can you see that?

i like this photo.

PHOTO COPYRIGHT @ BEN

and photo credit to him....

~~(he'll probably sue the person who steal this photo, oh wait, the person is me LOL)~~

loser

2009-04-29T20:48:00.005+08:00

say bravo to myself. =(

now, i can really understand how people screw up their exam.

as a matter of fact, i won't be able to score well in today test. it was a mess, a really messy mess. though jo did try hard to console and convince me that it was merely a test, but hell i just couldn't take it easy and forget about it. nightmare, i should say. what has upset me most is not that i didn't know how to answer the questions but it's because of your truly smartass, me didn't read the instruction and didn't answer ALL the freaking questions!!

i ought to bang my head against the wall and die.

did you hear me?

2009-04-12T11:37:00.008+08:00

i want this watch!

please buy me this if you're kind enough.

i want the purple with white strap one.

*begs*

hot and cold

2009-03-28T13:59:00.027+08:00

at last, my vegetable-snow-meat took off for japan like three hours ago. she'll only be returned for her summer holiday and so i only get to see her in this year end ):

*pouts*

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went to TGI Friday's for a simple dinner yesterday. need not to say, vijin ffk us AGAINNNN. fine.

the camera doesn't like me to touch it's body ):
(thats why i don't like sony cameras :D )

dedicate to tommy.
*inside joke*

so niceeee.

act cute attempt failed big time
HAHAHAHAH...

my vege-snow-meat <3

the darlingsss.
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last but not least....

*super yongsui photo has been deleted*.

XD

we did spend plenty of time hanging out together, eating, catching movies, and etc since her last return from aussie. somehow, we have still a lot of plans yet to be done! so yeah, few more months to go so that we can continue with our so-called plans.

i know i've been saying that for million times but really, i'm gonna miss you so much!

loves.

thank you :)

2009-03-24T22:04:00.004+08:00

i know you're the one who gonna whack me first.

XD

webcam fun :)

2009-03-21T00:43:00.002+08:00

this is how i spent my friday night.

=______=

yeah, you call this an update but oh well. i'm wordless.
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good night people.

i'm not a happy person.

2009-03-14T16:40:00.012+08:00

everything is turning into gone cases now.

)':

le sigh.

remain in silence.

i don't feel like talking so much or replying people these days. anyone could be, even the bunch of friends i used to crap with. anyhoo, people who did talk/try to entertain me these few days might feel the same way too- don't feel like bothering me either. i guess. i'm really stress.

mood swing.

the erhu playing next door is deteriorating my mood, damn it. shut up please!

real disappointed.

2009-03-08T22:58:00.003+08:00

the title says it all.

.......

i'm not happy after all.

yet.

its not like you and me will give a damn about it.

goodnight!

when. i'm. bored

2009-02-23T00:13:00.005+08:00

i. actually. have. the. patience. to. spend. 2. freaking. hours. doing. this!

for. the. very. first. time.

;)

*ignores the cacat-ness.*

good night, people!

this is so not accurate!

2009-02-21T21:15:00.005+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
yeah, i'm a straightforward person and i tend to annoy people most of the time for being too straightforward and i don't think people like me because of this. lol.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
well, i'm not romantic at all.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
i'm a typical gemini.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
i DON'T flirt that's why i don't have admirers! :(

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
i think both are pretty important?

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
hmmm...?

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
i hope to be so =_____=

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
perhaps this is the only true one.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
wow!

whatever. i don't feel like talking to anyone but i've nothing better to do... and so i have done this super lame test.

the dark circle

2009-02-08T20:52:00.015+08:00

i have no idea why my eyes 365 days, a week of 7 days and 24 hours per day look as if someone has punched me in the eyes, ever since young.

every single photos of me looks like this.......

and you can see the eyes........

@.@

until now.......

it is getting worse!

mum used to say that i look like a ghost/vampire.

oh well.

i couldn't help myself though since that sufficient sleep doesn't help at all.

the eyes are small enough already yet the dark circles are getting bigger and bigger. SIGHHHH!!!!!

social outcast

2009-02-05T20:41:00.010+08:00

please grant me some time for everything. if you're kind. =) i've got so many things to do yet so little time. sigh! I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO EMO!!!!!!!!

i'm sick of the mundane routine of studying and rushing homework on almost everyday.what a nerdy life i have and i need entertainment for my own sake. :(

oh, ignore the { } ²

shall off to study now *yawns* and no more slacking pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

chinese new year

2009-01-29T16:52:00.014+08:00

brief update!

the red packet had my surname printed on it!
the QUAY family =)

since many of my relatives are not in malaysia, i realize that i've spent most of my time with friends during this cny.

on the first day of cny, spent the day in relatives' houses. nothing special happened as usual, didn't even have gambling and lion dance and parties this year.

went to shay's place next day since she gonna leave for melbourne that night for 6 days. finally, the besties were all gathered. watched lion dance, gambled, ate and talked. seebee and eva left early. gathered at yongv's house after that with vijin, samantha, jinwei, lillian,

shino, cheeyong and peiwah for another round. oh before that, had sing k session with khaiwee, khaiboon and her two cousins in yongv's house! randomly went to peiwah's house after khaiwee they left while waiting for vijin them to come over yongv's place. the gambling session was till 1.30am or so. well, i brought a wallet yet there's no money inside. =.=''' somehow i was still able to gamble without using my own money muahahaha!

and so yesterday, had been sleeping whole day (of course i did wake up for brunch) until i received a call from ben around evening time. got myself ready and rushed to his place in 30 minutes time. once AGAIN, i forgot to bring money but only wallet! yeah, you can swt me now! had a small gambling and after that 9 of us went to Aeon to catch a movie- all's well end's well. they said i'm crazy as i laughed like nobody's business from the beginning till the end of the show O.o yadayadayada... i met lillian there! but only saw her when we were leaving the cinema.

did nothing for today. watched drama and relatives came over our place. ~~going for dinner at relative's place later or maybe dinner with the old friends again~~ . steamboat with vijin, shino, yongv, jinwei and lillian. =______= at first i thought many of them would attend but seemed like i was wrong. vijin and shino even bluffed me that there would be only three of us for the dinner. @.@

oh my so-called cny. damn it, so many homo sapiens insulted/teased me that I'M SOOOO FLAT within these three days =___= yes i know, i know i'm flat-chested with big butt! so what?! gahhh..

random

2009-01-25T19:39:00.017+08:00

spring is here,

the blossom is blossoming,
and the bee is working its ass off,
it's beautiful.

(in case you wonder if that's a fly or bee, click to enlarge it! LOL)

btw, it reminds me of chinese new year. since CNY is here too, i think this photo is best to describe the atmosphere of chinese new year like how we used to hear from the lyrics of chinese new year songs. (i'm kinda sick of CNY songs now)

nevertheless, beautiful stuff will not last long,
life is short,
live life to the max,
appreciate as much as you can.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, everyone! and happy birthday, sharon.

xoxo.

half dead

2009-01-24T10:09:00.017+08:00

hello dudes, i'm still alive! no worry, you have not yet to lost a crappy/crazy/cool/whatever friend you claim me. HAHAHAHAH.....

yesterday was cross country running. and you know what, asthma visited me and said hello to me again. like how i used to be during the old time after the very chaotic band practices and competitions, i felt giddy and next, lost my consciousness. but this time wasn't that serious if compared to the past. thank god jeannie was there with me i should say. i couldn't remember what had really happened in between until i was asked to hop into a teacher's car.

everyone was asking me why would i still run as if i didn't know my health condition. i swear, i didn't really run! anyhoo, thanks to the peeps who had came over me, taking care of me, making me laugh, teasing/cursing me and blah... you know who you are :) they had got me food and milo and PILLOW too! muahahahha... yet sorry to say that the milo from kaijun's yucky and jeannie had drunk the tetra pack milo bought from wengkit which i think would taste better than kaijun's milo and they didn't allow me to have ice-cream!! bbq :'(

somehow, it's a kinda fresh but not very nice experience of having a bunch of new friends taking care of you instead of the old gang who used to be with you. again, big thanks to jeannie, yinyin, leongchin, khershing, ben, wengkit, kaijun, huisin, and i don't know who else was there. *big hugssss*

this would be the first time and so the last time.

the oldies

2009-01-18T02:56:00.011+08:00

it was more likely a hang out than a birthday celebration. as usual, the outing turned out to be only 5 of us (shay, lillian, vijin, jin wei and me) but not 50 *inside joke* HAHAHA!

since we didn't know where to have our dinner, struggling in between KL and pyramid, the ~~bossy~~ vijin wanted to bring us to try the indonesian food. but the place was so empty with zero people so ended up going to pyramid. went to TGI Fridays, but we had to wait for 15 minutes for our turn and our boss couldn't wait so yeah, in the end we dined japanese pasta at pasta de gohan.

plastic mocked-up of the different type of pastas were magnificently displayed to magnetize passers-by/patrons over. the displayed plastic dishes were certainly attractive and seemed mouthwatering yet the food turned up to be just so so. we didn't really have a very satisfying meal there.

after that, we left for shopping at around 9.30pm once we had our dinner done. like you know, we couldn't manage to get anything within the 30 minutes of window shopping. was planned to catch a movie but there had no movie that we felt like watching it. left pyramid at 11 something and headed to shay's house to continue with our plans- mahjong and movie catching. shay, lillian and jin wei were playing the 3-kakis-mahjong, they are addicted to mahjong so much i think while vijin and me did nothing but watching the freaking boring movie 'the pianist'. yes, i fell asleep watching that movie!

left the house around 2am and i'm really very sleepy now @.@

a good day though. good night! =)

...

2009-01-13T00:53:00.001+08:00

i want to install photoshop cs3 but why my hard disk RAM so small one. sigh. sigh. sigh.

=(

overjoy

2009-01-10T09:51:00.015+08:00

i feel guilty.

i have nothing much to complain about my class since we have already back to the school for one week. so far, besides of gaining more and more homework which is basically suck, school life is still as usual but kinda fun. (not as bored as i was expecting though)

on the other hand, i'm a happy person these days! for no reason? may be yes, may be not. i don't know why but just, i'm happy lah. it seems like everything goes well and entertaining. or perhaps, i'm getting more optimistic eh? oh well, whatever.

somehow, i had a very bad and shitty night on the second day of school. all the hostile emotions kicked in. what an emo night i tell you! but then....

' release ur stress with vibrator'

made me LAUGH!!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahah.......

okay, i know what he was trying to say is the massager but vibrator.... sounds so wrong. so yeah, i just couldn't help myself to stop laughing after that :D anyhoo, thank you for delighting my day.

LOL.

today is a hang out day with wee and boon and don't know who else.

till then,
toodles.

looking forward

2009-01-05T00:32:00.003+08:00

the memories are fading,
it's a sign of good start,
to get a life and move on.

this is a troublesome tag

2009-01-03T21:44:00.008+08:00

tagged by liying

Rules:
1. Post 5-10 things you want most on your birthday.
2. Please be reasonable and realistic or you suck.
3. Think about your friends economy.
4. Be as detailed as possible. (similar pictures, which shop u saw it, etc)
5. Think about your friends economy again
6. If you want something expensive, list down a group of people that you think could share their money so everone's budget doesn't exceed rm10.
7. Tag at least 5 of your friends. Unless you don't have any.

Your Date of Birth : 27th may

Q1
- a new dslr camera
- iphone
- all the latest technology stuffs.
- a new ~~branded~~ cool shades
- pay for me the flight tickets to travel around the world
- money

Q2 : Reason:
1. its time to change a new dslr camera
2. cuz i think it is better than ipod
3. high tech woman wannabe =)
5. my shades can throw into rubbish bin already :(
6. i'll bring you along if you pay the flight tickets for me!
7. i'm bloody ~~pokai~~ broke now.
8. see, i don't need you to buy me branded stuffs like gucci, guess, LV, chanel and all.

Q3: what do you want from your friends? (cannot be too expensive)
find me an uber HOT guy. i don't want hot and cold guy. hahaha....
don't even need a single cent. cheap enough eh? =.=

Q4: what was the best present you received before and why you like it?
i can't remember. shame to say that i seldom receive present. *hints*

Q5: what do you hope from your friends during your birthday?
your hugs and kisses will do. no, i'm just kidding. a simple celebration with the besties is more than enough i think.
p/s: i'm not like certain people who only want to be with their bf/gf. *coughs*

i'm not greedy right muahahaha...

reasonable and realistic enough not? yes, i'm materialistic too so i rock!

Q6 again, i tagged nobody. as stated above, i don't have any.

homo sapiens are complicated

2009-01-03T17:48:00.008+08:00

i found this is way funny. XD

9 words women use and what they mean...

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6.. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever
Is a women's way of saying Fuck you!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.

so what about men? the words they use and they mean...

1. Okay
He didn't actually hear anything you said, but he's learned that if he doesn't say something when you talk, you'll keep talking.

2. Five minutes
somewhere between "in a little while" and "the end of time". Never actually means five minutes unless you gave that as a time limit, in which case it means five minutes, timed to the closest millisecond.

3. Of course I love you for you!
He loves you for your body. If that goes, so will he.

4. Is it okay if I....?
He's already done it, so you may as well approve.

5. Loud sigh
Although not actually a word, the loud sigh accompanies the realization that he's going to have to figure out a way to undo something he's already done in the hopes that you'd approve.

6. Nothing
He forgot what he was going to say, most likely because he was distracted by the subtle jiggle of your/your sister's/your best friend's/some stranger's breasts.

7. Thank you
Thank you. Really, really thank you - as he thought for sure you'd say no.

this is so true, isn't it? lol.

the new year 2009

2009-01-02T02:15:00.010+08:00

well, year 2008 has officially come to an end and 2009 is here now. i'm not going to do a summary on how the year 2008 has been because like you know, this woman who suffers from amnesia couldn't really recall everything that has happened in the year. somehow, i'm pretty sure that 2009 probably would be a very hectic and tough year for me.

btw, i'm back in a complete piece; i'm still alive LoL! as a matter of fact, cai bao is a kind of good driver. at least i don't seem to have a heart attack sitting his car.

Genting was really crowded and the new year countdown celebration was not that bad. sad to say that my camera ran out of batteries and hence i've stolen all the photos from shay hahaha!

<3 them!
the besties since we're 7/8 till we're 18 now.
(too bad vijin's not in)

we spent our time here before we went for the countdown celebration

genting hotel.
this is where the countdown function held at

the firework show.

and they claimed it the best firework in asia. o.O

.....

the best part always comes last/ the finale but....

*no photo available*

hahaha....

was about to hang out again after that. it was great to take a walk around Genting in the middle of night despite its freaking cold weather but my feet hurt.

anticipation

2008-12-31T11:12:00.001+08:00

i'll be setting off to genting in few hours time. so yeah, pray for myself that i'll be back home in a complete piece of me but not piecessss.

happy new year!

:)

i'm lazy to blog nowadays

2008-12-30T00:48:00.005+08:00

hello people! it's 12.52am now and i just came back from shay's house. four of us went to pyramid for dinner and movie. yes man, the movie's absolutely nice and so funny can die. we had really good laugh and jin wei also had his dream come true! hahahhaha..

YES, is the new no. LOL!

gossip girl now so bye.

i'm dedicating this to you and YOU!

2008-12-25T00:22:00.005+08:00

it's you, i hate you! do you know that you've scared my ass off and how could you let me to have a hard time with you while others were counting down joyously on the christmas eve. you suck!

I HATE you, COCKROACH! go to hell.

and to YOU, lishi...

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, babe!

xoxo.

oh, i have realised that you're actually just sixteen while people are going to be seventeen soon hahaha...

Merry X'mas, people! though X'mas is nothing for me =(

2008-12-24T13:03:00.001+08:00

i'm in dilemma now.

how? how? how??

2008-12-23T03:27:00.002+08:00

what the hell are you talking about?!

damn. i hate you :)

omg so CUTE!

2008-12-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

jalen tasterman is so cuteeeee.... awww..

oh i miss the cousin

2008-12-21T22:48:00.008+08:00

Tagged by:
sharon (the cousin)
Rules:

1. Link to the person that tagged you.

2. Post the rules on your blog.　

3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.

4. Tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.　

5. Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.　

6. Reply to me when you finish.

Answer to Ques.3:

1) i'm so fat
2) i crave for many things
3) i've no mood to shop for the coming CNY
4) my face got lots of pimples now :(
5) i need MONEY $$$$
6) chua shayrol i'm waiting for you to come back from LA!

can i write more??

7) i'm counting down
8) i'll attend the band party
9) i met the coach just now
10) ~~and i don't know what to say anymore~~
timothy, you haven't finished your words. lishi, where are you?

Who Got Tagged?
nobody.

oh i'm so random. LOL!
bye.